before you all start reading this post... think about all the people who had came and went away from your life...think of the loved ones that you once had and lost it...think of your family..relatives and friends around you...how big of a part has they played in your life... the past..the present..the future...which one are you looking towards..?
Woke up quite early today..cycled to school for PW meeting..hmm..had a shoik feeling..saw you in school...duno why the feeling is so strange...its so inexplicable...sometimes we just seem so close together...at times we just seem so distant..moments later went to TP to find weicong..hah..his second week in school now...surely has lots to share..hah...on la! i think this hols i go chiong his school liao...then he will have alot of people to intro! hee..he's trying to become another pro in school...then after that went to collect cert at maris stella...wasnt there for long...but somehow felt a sense of belonging..just miss the maris stella days so much! i remember every carnival and every events that we have in school...i suppose the gang remembered as well...especially during the Marist Youth Day during Sec 3...that most memorable one...we just love dancing in the rain...with broomsticks!?!? hah...
went for kensington football thereafter...played from 3+ to 5...quarrelled wif a few kids there..hah..aiyah..it's hard to explain...but we can swear that we werent bullying them...they were just scare of us that's all...but we werent threatening them...kind of make frens with this french kid who just moved over..his name is Leo..nice name huh...and those unfriendly kids didnt want to let Leo join them for soccer...how bad... then mervyn was complaining about the singaporean kids nowadays..but after much asking from patient Leo...he got to play in the end...Went chomp chomp to drink the huge $2.50 sugarcane...damn bloated after that! cannot even walk ah...save me..
its my turn to lose sleep now..i guess we just take turns to sleep late la..hah..sometimes my love for you is just so strong...that i just want to embrace you in my arms...you make me wanna love you even more each day...but sometimes...i cant help it but lose my fighting spirit...there are times when i almost want to give up...there are times when i hate myself so much cuz so many things happen because of me...there are times when i reproach myself for pushing too hard...so sorry...i didnt mean to do that...i dont remember the day when i first set my eyes on you...maybe right when i met you...right when i m sitting opposite you...maybe i have waited for 62 days...i guess 600 more days wont be much for me? oopz..hee..but for now..all it matters is you first..get everything right...my shoulder would always be available..and i am always a call away..i want to see the days when you can be as cheery as your name again...
THOUGHTS for the day: Have i regain my fighting spirit?Kensington football will never die as long as the kensington buddies are there..the good new days will always be better than the good old days...be it outing or chalet or football...lets go buddies!
goodnight everyone...
excuse me :X
5:00 PM
Saturday, May 28, 2005
You are not alone...
watched VJ vs MJ on weds...
Had overnight stay on weds midnight..
Ran 2.8km on thursday morning..
24 hrs without slp...
tired...
After Titans on thursday night...I was so damn exhausted that i went home to eat and sleep after that...Woke up at 10.30 this morning..hah.. was feeling so shuang...everyone had to go to sch at 7+..but i heck la...went school late...its sports carnival aniway..so yah..saw a stunning message that made mi so worried and i cab to school immediately after my bath..tried to look for her but she was nowhere to be seen..saw her finally..guess she was trying to hide her sadness behind her smile...
Had Titans team event this afternoon till night..was quite la...nt tt xiong...maybe it was because i didnt push that hard..i still got a friendly match tomorrow..so i'm going to push hard for it..Like what i say...soccer is my life..i want to train hard for it..m still trying veri hard..hopefully can join a U18 club outside...hopefully...
To YOU out there...if YOU happen to read this..which is 0.000001254793% chance...dont you think YOU are so damn fucking immature by saying all those stuff..? Apart from how i normally use to speak.. I dont use vulgarities in my blog..u really deserve these..YOU are just like a 17/18/19-year-guy acting like a 3 year old kid...splurting nonsenical stuff without using even a small part of your tini-wini pea-brain...Is your brain too small or is it that simple? In that case..go home and play your lego and barbie dolls la..Even the strongest words add up together are not enough to condemn YOU..It requires some action for people like YOU to be punished..I don't care if YOU are some rugger or mugger or bugger..as long as i m alive..i will lay every ouce of strength that i have on YOU..Dont't let mi see YOU..better siam far far..YOU dont even know how to love...Even a 3-year-old kid can do better than YOU..oopz..i forgot that YOU are just like them..forget it...return to your mother's womb then..This world doesnt need YOU yet..FUCK OFF! dig that..?
and to you there..maybe till now you are still awake just like me...maybe you have shed lots of tears...but remember that you are not what is said...to me..you are the best..you simply ROCKS!and you know it..don't think too much k..it will be a better day tomorrow..tell yourself each day that you want to be happier than the previous day...that you will see life even more exciting than before...i promise that you will definitely see beautiful rainbows everyday...trust me..you are not alone..tell me if you need any help..Call mi if you feel bored...GAMBATTE!!
having a match tomorrow.. or rather in 7 hours time...better go have a sleep now...or else i cant perform well tomorrow...wish me lucks..guys..let win this match by a huge margin..lets train hard together k! OH~~~~~OH oh oh oh~~~ TJ boleh...TJ boleh..~~ Take care everyone.. Goodnight..
you take care too...remember the promise k.. "Sandy" (poor ting..) and his armoured vehicle (gum collector) will be rooting for you too..
THOUGHTS FOR THE DAY..... : *wonder if she has changed...scare to be left alone in the hols...*
excuse me :X
4:07 PM
Tuesday, May 24, 2005
tHe PuReSt Of PaIn...
time has passed...
been 54 days since we knew each other to be exact...
Some things have changed..
Some still remain..
But no matter what..
I will still be here..
Waiting..
Had quite a good time durin the weekend..some ups and downs...but nevertheless..my purpose in life still remains..to live each day as if it is the last..to let all emotions enrich my life and make me a stronger and happier person..friday..bball finals at toapayoh between TJ and HC..both teams played well..but TJ played slightly better..winning 83-75 in the end...cheerios to TJ...really exciting match...guess this would inspire all the sports to train hard and win competitions for TJC...guys...lets work hard together! I really want to train hard for soccer..Then after the finals went wandering around with cheelim....so two sad people talking and walking aimlessly...talk quite alot that day... Saturday..Went to Sentosa with KFC captain [7]Tan Yen Hao, [3]Pek Cheelim, [17]Soon Chengsiong, [19]Thia Chiong Wei..not alot of people go la...alot of them are disappearing one after another...maybe they are busy..maybe they found new friends...or maybe they didnt even bother to come out..this is sad...is KFC disbanding soon? hmm...it wont..as long as we are in...it wouldnt disband..Went strolling at Orchard with them thereafter...And its time for the big match between Man U and Arsenal at Chijmes...aww..so sad...Man U lost by penalties...They shud win lo...Arsenal dint even had a chance...never mind...next season we will be champions..! Go Rooney! Go Rio! Go Cristiano! Go Keane! I dint forget talking to you that time while watching the match..I enjoyed every moment with you..be it with you over the phone or virtually or just beside you..honestly..reached home at 2.30..aww..tired~~ Sunday was big walk...went with cheelim..hahah..i m cheelifired liao la...everytime when everyone never come out or have gone home...there will always be two people left...(cheelim and i) hahah..chengsiong had a hangover...couldnt join us...thia had to go bai bai..sp we started the 10km walk..at the same time chasing cheelim's beloved..after that cheelim and i went to look for her..thanks for coming down...it really brighten up my day..hmm...and hope yours was brighten up too...especially after your attempt of doing something bad ah..hah...notti notti... Stayed home today..going to go for a jog later...training up and at the same time..destressing myself from all the troubles...and all the sadness...been listening to all the sad songs that i can find..especially this song which is playing now..
goin for run le..take care everyone..
you take care too...smile...
SON BY FOUR LYRICS Purest of Pain I'm sorry I didn't mean to call you But I coudn't fight it I guess I was weak and couldn't even hide it And so I surrended just to hear your voice I know how many times I said I'm gonna to live with out you and maybe someone else is standing there beside you But there is something baby that you need to know That deep inside me i feel like Im dying I have to see you it's all that I'm asking Vida, give me back my fantasies, The courage that I need to live The air that I Breathe Carino mio, my worlds become so empty My day's are so cold and lonely,and each night I taste The purest of Pain I wish I could tell you I'm feeling better every day That it din't hurt me when you walked away But to tell you the truth I can't find my way And deep inside me I feel like I'm dying I have to see you it's all that I'm asking
