"The more you love a memory, the stronger and stranger it gets. Remembering is only a new form of suffering."- quoted from a wiseman. -adopted from weicong's blog-
couldnt really get to sleep..hmm.. the buddies know y la..haha... saw this quote in weicong's blog..hmm..duno who the wiseman is..but i reckon it shud b bufan himself..hmm..he love calling himself wiseman..er... but anyway.. think it's quite true sometimes.. quite meaningful..
Human beings as they are called.. grow up in a very unique way individually.. its fate for friends to come together.. its fate for lovers to come together.. when people of different backgrounds can actually meet..and get along with each other.. slowly they becum better friends... good friends.. then buddies.. with lotsa memories to recollect.. the good ones..the unpleasant ones.. all of these shape each person differentially.. and it goes the same for lovers.. they becum love partners.. then they love each other dearly.. they became engaged.. and finally man and woman.. they have great memories together.. loving each other more and more each day.. friendship or "buddiship" i shud sae.. and courtship and marriage.. doesnt just come to a point like that.. it goes on and on and on.. it doesnt just stop somewhere.. and along the way..more memories are stored in our minds.. they impact greatly to our lives.. sometimes even just a quote can change our lives completely.. and the memories go on and on and on..until one day.. u wont be able to walk anymore.. you wont be able to stand anymore.. you know.. it's time..time for you to go.. people say your last breath will b exceptionally long.. for the memories will come rushing back for one last time.. before you enter paradise.. i believe in it.. and i dont wan any regrets during my last expectionally long breath.. cherish everybody around me.. do the things that I like and make me happy.. leave without regrets..
hmm..it's getting late.. time for bed.. wonder if you all understand what i m saying or not..hmm.. some sudden random questions came into mind.. do most of our dreams really come true...and what will you do..if reality clashes with your dreams.. what would you be really thinking inside your heart and mind.. and if you really do something.. how much will your feelings you feel inside.. and the feelings that you expressed out differ.. i duno about you all.. but the thoughts inside myself seem to be battling against each other.. no definitely answer comes to mind.. i guess simple things seem really complex when you really want to use your heartfelt feelings(really really heartfelt) in the thinking process..
Goodnight..
excuse me :X
1:46 AM
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
Take care baby!
hmm..got no time to tink of ani nice post to create..so shall update some tings thats happening lately.. yea.. hmm.. been quite busy with keeping up with my own study, training and social schedule..hahaha.. but dun wori guys..if u all got anything can always find me alright..hmm..i will be glad to hear from you.. yea.. today baby had cross country..haha.. she got a competitor's medal wor..woah! hmmm..well done dear! heh.. see.. if you can overcome yourself.. have a strong mind and complete the race.. u can do it in other aspect as well.. hmm.. Impossible is nothing! ok.. hmm.. believe in yourself.. i trust you can do it.. and i noe we can do it together..but first.. u gotta haf self confidence.. and then try to go about embarking on your hard and long journey.. hmm.. dont b afraid of ani failures or wat..cuz i will stay by you supporting you while you learn from them k..i will stay till you breathe your last alrite.. follow you whereva you go..hmm.. Jiayou!
gona go malaysia on fridae nite..yea.. dont miss me too much ah people..haha.. will be back on sunday.. haha.. sigh..sch's boring.. how i wish i can juz haf the money to employ a home tutor..and study myself at home..no need go sch.. haha.. get all the completed notes from tutor.. study myself at home.. wadeva duno then ask tutor..haha.. so slack..but can achieve my 4As!! haha.. i muz b dreaming la..heh.. gotta work hard! oh.. i see the darks clouding gathering in the sky....
Time to head for homE!!!!
excuse me :X
1:44 PM
Thursday, March 23, 2006
should i...
should i just quietly walk away.. or stay on bravely..
y must i do all that..
the wall looks cool...
excuse me :X
11:04 PM
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
To my baby darling jeanette..
This entry is solely for my darling only..so if u all cant take it ah..stay tuned for the next entry..SOON..!
looking back on what had happened in the past 130 days.. it somehow surprises me that we have come this far.. back then on our first day.. everything seem so sudden.. everything seem to be in a fast-forward motion.. neither did any of us believe that we can go this far back then.. but 4 and a half months.. is consider quite long..judging from way we started.. we only knew for around 3 days.. and woah.. boy oh boy.. wasnt it memorable.. all the memories came flashing back all of a sudden.. i knew i made alot of promises which i didnt keep.. i feel lousy at times too.. it aches my heart.. when i kept saying the same things over and over again.. and each time..i know..the significance of it diminishes.. i guess its in my genes that i need some bad things to happen..before i can really “WAKE UP”.. it applies for everything.. and now.. something almost happen.. but Darren Ong ain’t going to let it happen.. cause what’s in his mind now are the first words that he said to baby jeanette on the very first day they were together.. I won’t be the reason for your tears.. I want you to be happier than I do.. I want to walk hand in hand with you on the green pasture when we grow old.. I want to watch the sunrise and sunsets with you everyday.. I want...~~ so many “I wants..” but yet the things that i do..clashes with what i have in mind.. i hate myself for pulling off such stunts time and time..i hate myself for making you upset everytime.. i am really sorry.. i fail as a boyfriend.. Somehow the things about us just keep coming.. our first day seem like yesterday.. so sweet..so romantic..but in contrast to today..sigh. never will i forget the days when we are together.. you taking care of me..and me taking care of u.. enjoying our private moments and loving lunches and dinners outside.. coming down to Kensington.. Thank you darling.. maybe whatever i say may seem irrelevant and repetitive to you..but to me.. i only have one darling.. and thats you.. if i dont treat u well.. may bad karma fall on me..get struck by lightning or whatever.. well..from this moment onwards.. i gona change myself! i will.. i gona rid all my flaws away.. and replace them with the good ones..the qualities that i need..for you to give your 1000% to me.. no matter what it takes.. i am not afraid..i will really try hard.. and not misuse the chance that i have..trust me darling.. Still remember the dessert house..lets go there soon or something k..i really miss that place..u stupid lao ah ma.. hmm.. i feel so lousy now.. i understand how you are feeling now darling.. its all my fault.. i hope you will forgive me.. i love you baby.. gonna see you on friday! yay! hmm.. i wanna hug my piggy darling forever..
