Once again.. I made her sad.. cuz of my selfishness.. my stupidity.. my foolishness.. my inability to keep promises.. Had been sleeping since 7pm till now.. doing nothing.. thinking of you..kept waking up time and time..the same song playing again and again.. Been listening to forbidden love and wishes to wishes.. these two songs sure can make someone cry..In the complex human brain of mine.. there were only a few simple things floating inside.. our days together.. our days spend alone.. your smiles.. your cries.. your cheerfulness.. your bitterness.. your beautiful idiot face.. your act cute stupid face.. As i look into the mirror.. i saw a very scary face inside.. the very person in that mirror.. claims he love her alot.. claims he wants to share all his happiness and woes with her.. claims he wun make her upset anymore.. claims he wont break any promise.. you are right.. i am not a man of my word.. i make empty promises.. i take you for granted.. i am not trustworthy.. you are right..you are right.. I am very weak now.. I cant defend myself anymore.. I cant fight back.. I dont have the right to.. I need to cling onto you.. i need you.. please dont go.. I want to tell you how much i love u.. I dont us to be like this.. I dont want anything to happen to us.. I dont wanna fight no more...scold me slap me kick me.. i wont retaliate.. i wont budge.. i will do anything.. please come back.. I have no right to make any promise or apologise now.. all i ask.. is to be by my side.. i need you.. i cant go on without you..
Please..dont go.. I love you.. happy 145th day.....
excuse me :X
3:35 AM
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
It's time to blog..
haha..stupid piggy.. so early sleep liao..hmm..take care alrite.. you seem so tired these daes..hmm.. how bout slping in my arms la? haha..no regrets one..
Today something stupid happen.. was joggin round the school.. ran to the back of the school and suddenly had a stomachache.. cant really run animore or else the sai will come out ah.. turn back and walk need 15 mins.. walk ahead need 20 mins.. and i hafin lessons in 10mins time... what to do....?
Today something interesting happen.. physics lecturer gave us some inspirational stories to read aft lectures.. he rox la..haha.. I forgot the content of it..maybe i try to get from him.. but there is one part which keeps repeating in my mind.. is that we often tell ourselves we gona do this we gona do that "someday" or "the next time round". Y not we do it now! we do it tomorrow! make it more imminent.. cuz you may not haf the to do it the next time round.. so if u hvn tell your family and friends that you love them..do it now! not someday.. if you hvn do the things that you want wif your loved ones.. find some time and do it soon.. and not rely on "someday" which you know will not happen.. if you hvn been gifing time to your loved ones.. leave everything aside first..and listen to them..tok to them.. bring them out.. So what ya gona do..?
Today something bad happen.. Bad weather.. raining so heavily.. imagine people gona have their party outdoors.. people njoyin themselves at the beach.. meetings and events gona be cancelled.. and if you dont have an umbrella.. you're gona get wet.. What to do..?
