This entry is solely for my darling only..so if u all cant take it ah..stay tuned for the next entry..SOON..!
looking back on what had happened in the past 130 days.. it somehow surprises me that we have come this far.. back then on our first day.. everything seem so sudden.. everything seem to be in a fast-forward motion.. neither did any of us believe that we can go this far back then.. but 4 and a half months.. is consider quite long..judging from way we started.. we only knew for around 3 days.. and woah.. boy oh boy.. wasnt it memorable.. all the memories came flashing back all of a sudden.. i knew i made alot of promises which i didnt keep.. i feel lousy at times too.. it aches my heart.. when i kept saying the same things over and over again.. and each time..i know..the significance of it diminishes.. i guess its in my genes that i need some bad things to happen..before i can really “WAKE UP”.. it applies for everything.. and now.. something almost happen.. but Darren Ong ain’t going to let it happen.. cause what’s in his mind now are the first words that he said to baby jeanette on the very first day they were together.. I won’t be the reason for your tears.. I want you to be happier than I do.. I want to walk hand in hand with you on the green pasture when we grow old.. I want to watch the sunrise and sunsets with you everyday.. I want...~~ so many “I wants..” but yet the things that i do..clashes with what i have in mind.. i hate myself for pulling off such stunts time and time..i hate myself for making you upset everytime.. i am really sorry.. i fail as a boyfriend.. Somehow the things about us just keep coming.. our first day seem like yesterday.. so sweet..so romantic..but in contrast to today..sigh. never will i forget the days when we are together.. you taking care of me..and me taking care of u.. enjoying our private moments and loving lunches and dinners outside.. coming down to Kensington.. Thank you darling.. maybe whatever i say may seem irrelevant and repetitive to you..but to me.. i only have one darling.. and thats you.. if i dont treat u well.. may bad karma fall on me..get struck by lightning or whatever.. well..from this moment onwards.. i gona change myself! i will.. i gona rid all my flaws away.. and replace them with the good ones..the qualities that i need..for you to give your 1000% to me.. no matter what it takes.. i am not afraid..i will really try hard.. and not misuse the chance that i have..trust me darling.. Still remember the dessert house..lets go there soon or something k..i really miss that place..u stupid lao ah ma.. hmm.. i feel so lousy now.. i understand how you are feeling now darling.. its all my fault.. i hope you will forgive me.. i love you baby.. gonna see you on friday! yay! hmm.. i wanna hug my piggy darling forever..
